When I was 14
i started starving
and the weight flew off fast
teachers asked questions
neighbors made comments
and my mother took
the scale away
and screamed
when she saw
what it said

but i gained the weight back
so i’m better now.

When I was 18
i realized i could vomit
just as easily as i could eat
i stored food wrappers
and cartons
and bottles
under my bed
i puked in bathroom stalls
and i ran the tap water
and i brushed my teeth

and everybody turned the other way
so i’m fine now.

When i was 19
i got into the liquor cabinet
i couldn’t wait one more minute
to escape
i stole from different stashes
and i locked my door early
and i drank until

but i still wake up
so i’m ok for now.

I’m 21
I will take whatever you can give me
I will coast
on whatever high
will get me by
i will smoke and snort and drink
you hand me
if it means

just for tonight,

i’m alright

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All the hardest, coldest people you meet,
were once as soft as water.
And that’s the tragedy of living. Iain S. Thomas (via selenamg)

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"fat girls shouldn’t—"

—have to deal with your narrow minded bullshit.


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